sins

ya Allah , o YA ALLAH , i miss the old me ,:i ve zero idea of myself now, i want to run run, but where to go , im so tirer sad mad , where am i going now, 20 and alone , only have Allah , i dont know, im broke , no money , no jobs ,im hungry,im thinking of running away from house but where going , i dont have husband lolz , why u hate me so much , why , its better to not live in this world , so that everone is happy , less burden ,too bad , dont gv us school whn we r young if u dun wan to suffer , but in the end ur suffering too , apologise , 3yeaa, i my family is not nlrmal ,im not normal too , why , its all wrong from beginnnjng but who am i to judge ,indded i need to change myself , my attitjde , i dunnoe about myself , i cant get well along with my roomates in uitm n jsm before this , i mean im bad , sot

rry rs more n i will pay everything , its hard to be in poor family , we hv to work hard for  this blog is stupid , fuck , soory , 

i caant

i caant read my own post . FU , sorry ,

[2nd year updated]

Depending on your preference:
Medical: Kumar & Clark, Davidson, Hutchison clinical methods, Terry & Oconner Clinical Exam, ABC ECG, Ganong Pathophysilolgy, Katzung Clinical Pharmacology
Surgical: Browse, Bailey & Love,
Pathology: basic pat

hology by (forgot the name)
Musculoskeletal: Apley's Orthopaedics
Haematology: essential Haemato

You may also learn to search article/journal/EBM for up to date information...

not to forget to emphasize on Clinical skills/History Taking/proper systemic clinical examination...

 

 

humm , hopefully dapat senior same course dalam rumah , at least , amin >.< ~

xo

momoe

ANNEYONG ~!

ZZZZ dude , get a life ! we're not living in korean drama , aha ~
 Assalamualaikum , Happy ramdhan al Mubarak , nothing to say . as usual dunnoe what to write , nothing interesting , ahaks !! this is my 20th bufday cake ! from ABoh n MOK , tq v much !!! may ALLAH swt keep u in health always , amin 26th july 2012 , a very special day for everyone , and scariest day , cus !!! OUR RESULTS were announced during my birthday , i like seriously wanna dissapear from this land that day , but ALHAMDULLILAH , we goona be 2nd YEAR MEDICAL STUDENTS , yeh DOCTOR in MAKING ! insyALLAH .....
so whats plan for now ? CHILAXING TIME TV MOVIE EAT SLEEP
 : : : : 2ND YEAR PREPARATION ALSO !!! MUST DO IT BEFORE SEPT oO !! wehee , nothing much , this is it !!

20th face ! like seriously very not cute , aha ! and it's edit , thats why i look very fair , seriously shiizzz

2nd year

ALHAMDULLILAH , we made it to 2nd year O Allah forgive me TT.TT Fatin .. kejayaan dunia itu lebih manis dgn kejayan akhirat. TT.TT

and 3weeks left

Assalamualaikum wbt ,


alhamdulilah , 1st year of medical studnet life end today , 21 jun 2012 , how time flies very fast ,my heart is lup dup lup dup , can i pass my 2nd year ? can i answer everything ? can i remember averything ? can i write what i understand and know ? can i ? can i ?

O YA ALLAH , ampunilah diri ini , terlampau byk dosa-dosa yg aq buat , ya Allah aq slalu j lupa , lalai , sesungguhnya aq sgt hina Y_Y , ya Allah ampunilah segala kelalaian ku , ya Allah kuatkan lah keyakinan ku ini , ya Allah berikanlH aq kekuatan iman ,sesungguhnya aq sering lupa dan alpa terhadapMU Y__Y sesungguhnya aq tidak layak , aq sgt hina Y_Y . be positive fatin , positive , positive , aq tidak layak untuk memohon kpdMu selain keampunan atas sgl dosa dosA ,,,,, AQ MESTI CUBA !!!!! =(((((




HUM , nobody wish me lucks for pro , he he , so nobody remember me , i ve been 2 lone ranger [ forever alone ] , SO this is me , a serious girl who talk when i think its necessary only with some ppl ( i ve no idea what to talk ) , nobody knows what ive travelled , if i didnt push myself , nobody can help Y_Y this is true , dear friends , i know u wont see this , but , im really apologise for all if i hv md u hurts , i ve no intention to do that , and so sorry if i ve made u mad , good luck all for proffesional exam 1 , semoga dibuka pintu pemahaman and diilhamkan petunjuk ,,,,,, amin ~


 YA ALLAH , ampunilah diri ini , terlampau banyak dosa-dosa lampau yang tidak terpikul Y_Y , I REALLY WANT 2 BERJAYA IN DUNYA N AKHIRAT , ya ALLAH , ampunilah diri ini , ALLAH


things to cover
CNS ( SGD BIOCHEM , PHYSIO , PRACTICAL )
HAEMATO ( SGD , PRACTICAL ,
ahh so many more , its okey , UNDERSTAND AND REMEMBER FOREVER , AMIN ~

IF U READ THIS , PLEASE PRAY FOR MY BEAUTIFULL JOURNEY ^_^

xo

momoe

enganged

THE INCIDENT

SAD =[

korea here we goooo !!

assalamualaikum and hi ppl !!!i shouldnt blog at this time , with 7 weeks left for PROFESIONAL EXAM , i noe i noe , but hehehhe ,dont be too anxious with future till present is not appriciated (how to spell it)

 korea ? hope 2 be there soon , amin :D Y I WANNA B THERE ? 2 MEET THIS HANDOMEST PPL AGAIN :b :B  

                               it's FT ISLAND dooo

hewehwwhewwewe ( Wassup wif HEWHewhew ? ) 


sooo , this is it , the travel agency ( kinda ) by malaysian student mr azri , heheh ur so handsomee i hope i can b there in korea like u ! :B ( yeh handsome part is joke , b there is TRUE ) 

HERE'S THE LINK , I HOPE MY SIS CAN BRING US , AMIN . I'LL KEEP DREAMING !! IT'S NOT POSSIBLE 

http://www.facebook.com/Muslimtourtokorea

hewwwheeeeeew i wannna goooo =d



dammit i dint get hostel , im baddddd

results

assalamualaikum and hi , my heart didnt lie , again ... my results drop , im not happy , but alhamdullilah , i pass it , overall selanjar 1,2,3 i passed but not with flying colors , but alhamdulilah alhamdulilah , i did worked hard mybe not smart , didnt revise evrytin back , xsempat ,, planning is not okay ,, YA ALLAH , serabut nya kepala ni nak plan ... kejap nak buat ni nak buat tu with LITTLE TIME ,maybe for others , CUKUP , me ? concentrate more on STUPID EMOTIONAL STUFF , IM LAZY TO THINK , I LET MY STUPID DESIRE TO CONTROLL ME ,WELL THIS GONNA LONG POST BOUT MY MISTAKES I DID BE4 SELANJAR 3, I DONT WANT TO REPEAT IT AGAIN FOR PRO EXAM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS NOT THAT IM NOT BERSYUKUY , BUT AGAIN STUPID STUFF DISTURBING , IF ONLY I CAN KILL THEM , I'LL !~ ya ALLAH ,please forgive me ,,, =(( i did lotsa mistakes , i left important things , i did do what u dont wannna us 2 do .. my friends who failed the selanjar 2 ? i believe they will pass it better than , alhamdulilah , i did my part as friend , now im gunna FOCUS on MYSELF !~ i'LL WORK SMART AND HARD , I WONT LET ANYTHING TO DISTURB ME AGAIN , EVER ,,, EVEN U dear ______ !! =((((((( OSPE ? yeh I SCREWEDD IT ,,,,,,,,,,,, ANATOMY AGAIN ~ ~ when so many things to revise , i forget everytin , I NEED TO FIND STUDY PARTNER, ILL STOP PRETENDING I LIKE GOSSIPING , GOSSIPING IS SUCH A WASTE OF ENERGY !!!! WHO CARES ???? GO TO H###L WITH THAT , SORY PEEPS . I BITCH ALOT HERE , THATS ALL.. IL KILL ANY1 WHO DISTURB ME W, EVEN U WITH STUPID FB EMOTIONAL STATUSES , WHAT DO U THINK AM I ????? ITS NOT EASY TO GET AT THIS PLACE, BEGGING U . STOP !!! XO MOMOE

exam

seriously i screweeeed evrytin , padang muke aq =(((((((( die larrr

wattehel im duin ?

ouh grosss wasting my time playing fb and internet , tomoro mcq paper ko igt ko da bijak fatin ?? im stupuid shitttt remember story when my parents almist want to divorce , never thot tat girl is hvg some probz , may everytin os fine go our family ='] i tot im ony got probz , others too , y am imaking life is so miserable ?

noting is great , ony when u hav the knowldege , i wann b a cardiologist , so ....... tiz iz it , SHUT UP AND WORK LIKE A HELLL , U MORONSSS

is this a love

assalamualaikum wbt .

hye momoe !!! im back , =] im falling in luv ? not rely its just there's a guy who's being very serious , which doesnt even care about my presence touched my heart , masyallah , i must forget him .................... im nobody to get the love , love of Allah did i tried to get it at my very best ???? o Allah the most mercy , please forgive my weakness , astarfirullah ,,,,,,, and syukk i pray for u to back soon , be healthy as u used to be , be strong syukur salleh !!~

my life

hello hello , hello and hello people !
just finished throwing all the output that i learnt for few blocks , everything is fine except anatomy part , HUH , i need to practice a lot .. my life after stepping into this course ? well said , still learning and learning to improve myself , the environment ? my sgd is okay , not really , i dont feel any LOVE BOND between us , like i used to feel in UITM , it's like everyone is at there for memorising and throwing what u know , i hate the MEMORISING PART , only at 2nd year got the application... >.< oh memorising is not my expertise , but I NEED TO UNDERSTAND and MEMORISE only i know and remember , my room ? getting better after mok bought me a kipas , the TABLE ? is small especially during study weeks , i dunnoe where to put my notes , even i scrathed my left arm many times bcus of the STUPID screw at the bed ladder , dammit, SHOULD BUY BOXES/RACK ?? ! STUDY GROUP , ALHAMDULILAH after few months finally i managed to find study partners , they help me to understand better , it's just that im too lazy to GO especially when im not well prepared =[ =[ i need to see doc fuad after this , how to GAIN MORE on ANATOMY , lisa and nur help me so much with the study especially during study weeks..thankyu for being during the time i lost in my study and not just during fun time (so sorry idk how to gossiping) , alhamdulilah , after this need to PLAN BETTER , and yes im REALLY FEEL DISTRACTED with someone who keep posting PSYCHO-ING STATUS ON FB , LIKE THE VICTIM OF THE SITUATION , what's wrong with you ?pointing a finger to someone else , lets musahabah ourselves ! know the concept , and apply it ,,,stop being drama queen ........... do ya need someone to accompany ya to poo ? LOL ... HEmmm, my mok said just ignore it and yes .... and yeh just now i approved some frenz request from A PILOT , SO CUTE ............. BUT IM NOBODY , SO I GUESS , [= [= [= BYE BYE MR PILOT ............... thats all. too lazy to blog , bye asslkm wbt ^_^Y




xo
momoe

ft island

yeh im guin to meet Em =B

stop being sad

heuu , y fatin must be so emotional , ur in medical school , no time to think that and that , ur carelessness today guin to kill ppl in future , dear lee hong ki im really sad for not being able to c ya , again , and i redha .. =] .... smile fatin . medical is fun , ya can know many things !! you want to fail selanjar 2 ?? of course no right , so work hard and smart , stop shopping >.<...... o ALLAH , alhamdulilah for everything , im wondering y my frenz tell me she got A for xm , its just that it made me little sad with mine , dont worry , she just want to share her hapiness , i dont know if she tell the others too , dont be sad fatin ! when ur friend is succeed , ya shul cheer!!oke now , UNDERSTAND UNDERSTAND UNDERSTAND and u'll remember , gotta go , going to ON-CALL with SGD , semoga dipermudahkan semuaNya .. amin2 =] and happi newww 2012 , 20 already ? yeuuuu~

xmas xmas

jingle jingle bell ... not guin home , hah .... so many too cover the tracts and etc , oke =] gambatte !! this is pic steal from kah yan , me as org kg in borneo nite , fun larr xcept the practise part , damn tiring , o i noe notin im learning Y.Y
OK BYE PPL

1ST SELANJAR

YA ALLAH , esok 1st selanjar , and semalam yocik passed away , al-fathihah ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ya Allah smeoga baik2 sahaja esok , semoga aku diberi ketenangan , semoga aku bole jawab drp tidak , banyak sgt x cover especially biochem and anatomy , org sekeliling da tunjuk muka depressed , sabar lah wahai kawan , kami pun same , cume BE STRONG , mengeluh x selesai kan probz , [= senyum lah walau pun lemah ( this iz not the end of the world ) ,sabar ye fatin ~~ little obstacles , so what ??? EMBRACE IT TOMOLO... insyallah , ya Allah byk nya dosa aq , 19tahun hidup , sgt2 lemah , HIJRAH .... ya ,,,,,,, akan ku pertingkatkan diri ini tuk jadi better than before , insyallah wajib tuk ikhlaskan diri ini , ya Allah ,,,,,,,,,, ampuni lah kami ya ALLAH ~ semoga arwah yocik ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg beriman , ampunilah dosa arwah tok wok and yocik ~~ 27 november 2011 salam maal hijrah , =]

for those who read this please pray for my beautifull jurney , amin ~

xo
momoe

EMmmmmm

assalamualaikum wbt ,
He's in the hospital ......... ya Allah , please bless my uncle ............sembuhkan lah semuanya...............................ya Allah , ampunilah dosa kami...pulihkan lah semuanya ,,,,,,,,,, berikan lah kami ketenangan,buangkanlah sifat marah kami dari hati ini .......................... ya ALLAH ,Aku adalah hamba-Mu. Aku menjadi lemah karena penyakit yang kuderita. Aku sedar ini akibat dari dosa-dosaku, kelakuan burukku. Ampunilah aku demi hamba-Mu yang terkasih dan mulia."


,” Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli daripada orang-orang mukmin , diri dan harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka.” [Surah at-Taubah , ayat 111.]

Akan kamu gunakan untuk apa nikmat kesehatanmu?" Jika anda memohon kesihatan dan kekuatan, maka anda harus meniatkannya agar lebih dalam mengingati Allah dan menurut perintahNya dan bukan untuk lebih mengejar dunia.

xo
momoe

failure

assalamualaikum w.b.t ,

he didnt pass the course , =[ ya ALLAH , please give him some strength ........ me ? havent start studying yet ,.,,, i know but im LAZY , ya Allah , what's wrong with me...............my selanjar is coming , but my determination is NOT strong enuff,,FATIN BANGUN!!!!!!!!!!!! =((( arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i dont want to make my fam to dissapointed with me , but MY ATTITUDE IS TOTALLY CRapzzz...o Allah , kuat kan lah diri ini ... amin... bukan senang nak berjaya , tapi senang untuk kalah.....masyAllah ~

xo'

momoe

little reminder

Kita bertanya : Kenapa aku diuji?

Quran menjawab , “Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan ,” Kami telah beriman, sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka , maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar , dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang berdusta.” Surah al-Ankabut , ayat 2-3.

Kita bertanya : Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam-idamkan?
Quran menjawab ,” Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu , padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” [Surah al-Baqarah , ayat 216.]

Kita bertanya : Kenapa ujian seberat ini?
Quran menjawab ,” Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.” [Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 286.]

Kita bertanya : Kenapa kita rasa frustasi?
Quran menjawab ,” Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah , dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati , padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya , jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman. “ [Surah Ali Imran , ayat 139.]

Kita bertanya : Bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya?
Quran menjawab ,” Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang , dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amat berat kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyuk.” [Surah al-Baqarah ayat 45.]

Kita bertanya : Kepada siapa aku berharap?
Quran menjawab,” Cukuplah Allah bagiku , tidak ada Tuhan selain daripadanya. Hanya kepadanya aku bertawakal .” [Surah at-Taubah, ayat 129.]

Kita bertanya : Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ujian ini?
Quran menjawab ,” Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli daripada orang-orang mukmin , diri dan harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka.” [Surah at-Taubah , ayat 111.]

Kita berkata : Aku tak tahan !
Quran menjawab ,”....dan janganlah kamu berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir.” [Surah Yusuf , ayat 12.]

Kita berkata: Sampai bila aku akan merana begini
Quran menjawab,” Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. “ [Surah al-Insyirah, ayat 5-6.]

ya Allah , aku sangat2 lemah ........... kuat kan lah diri ini untuk terus berada di jalan Mu
amin........insyAllah
selanjar in 3weeks more, im not sure if can cover everything (STILL THINKING ABOUT STUPID THINGS, Fartzzz,one things about medical is , with little time u ned to digest everything ,,,,,,,,,,,,,whoever who read this , pray for my beautifull journey,hope to get through my 1st selanjar my very best , how to be a doctor if u make a mistake , lately things seems very bad to me , there was a day i felt very sucks ,,, especially when some1 hurts my heart/ i cant follow the lectures , , yah i need to be indipendence , ITS OKAY TO BE NICE =]...... my room is small and i dont feel comfortable when it is in messy ,KEBERSIHAN ADALAH SEBAHAGIAN DRP IMAN,..........,,,, well ITS NEVER BE TIRING IF IT MAKES ME COMFORTABLE
,,,,remember the story ? a person with a wheel chair ? this anonymous is
very strong , he helps
himself to get tru everytin , ALONE ...................... SO Y NOT ME ?? =(((((( y i let my heart to b hurt juz bcuzz of stupid emotional feeling? whats wrong wif u fating ???im bit stressfulled with english ( essay thingy , my grammar is damn stupid ... VERY LOW ) then many to remember with little time ,,, ITS FUN BUT SOMETIMES ITS BURDERING MY FEELING,my STUPID FEELING.SABAR FATIN SABAR ,,,, TO BE A GUD DOC IN FUTURE ,,, WOULD U LOVE TO MAKE MISTAKES AND MAKE UR PATIENTS SUFFER??? NOOOO ,SO ??? shut up fatin , okeeee FOCUSSSS !! APOLOGIZE PPL FOR THEIR MISTAKES , bcuz ur not PERFECT EITHER,,,,,,,,,,, woohhhh,small stuff to break ur future?? NOO,

xo
momoe